A Fresh Start
I just had a really good conversation with my kindergarten best friend. Our first real conversation since kindergarten. Considering it was Kindergarten, I guess it might be our first real conversation ever ;)
It amazes me how we were friends for less than a year, long before either of us actually became people, yet we still turned out to be extremely similar. Not necessarily in the things we do, or the groups we ended up with, or the way we look, but in the ways we think, our beliefs, senses of humour, personalities, basic interests.
Sure, we’ve been “friends” on facebook for a couple years, but we hadn’t really talked since we were 5. We still managed a long, deep, meaningful conversation about life, our lives, and overcoming challenges. It actually made me feel pretty damn good about life and what’s ahead, which is a change for me.
I recently graduated, and haven’t found a job yet. I recently went through a breakup of a 5+ year relationship, where I’d literally been dating my best friend, who’d become a co-dependent loner with me. I’m basically starting my life over from scratch, no job, no real friends I actually hang out with, no love. Just me, and nothing but lack of money holding me back.
In this fresh start, I’ve made myself a promise. In the past, I’ve put up with crappy friends who don’t respect me, don’t really connect with me, who I don’t even completely like as people, just because they were my friends, and I’ve been intimidated by the people I’ve actually been drawn to, who have that personality type that I’d really mesh with. I got rid of those crappy friends, but I never replaced them. Now, it’s my mission not to let the good people scare me off, to go back and grab those people and bring them into my life somehow.
Life is too short not to make it the best life you can have, and it’s got to start with the people in your life.
I’m really glad I approached that friend and told him how much I admire the person he’s become. Something in that conversation really opened my eyes and strengthened my resolve to let my life be great. Thanks, J.